Come On This Musical Ride With Me

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Jayde - Loves Sirius
so_jayded
jaydewrites if you're looking for my fic!

This is my personal journal of personalness and the only writing on it is bad and old. :] Mostly I just talk about me, and if that interests you, go ahead and friend me.

Fic: Fortune Favours
Jayde - Apron
so_jayded
I'm a universe writer. And by that I mean that once I write a fic, I feel it's utterly necessary to write out the entire past and sometimes the future of the entire thing. Which is fine, I like it, and it's a lot of fun for me, but it does kind of feel like I'm harping on and on about the same thing. I did it with Plaything and I wanted to do it something awful with nearly everything else I've written in the last few years, but anyway, I've caught the bug for the universe I created for the rsbigbang and I can't get it out of my head, so probably I am going to go crazy with it.

So I'm posting fic on here again. I know, I know. You'll ignore it and we'll all carry on.




Title: Fortune Favours
Author: so_jayded (duh)
Rating: G
Word Count: approx 1500
Summary: Career Counselling, or Sirius has a plan, McGonagall cracks a smile, and James tells a fortune (badly).

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[Hanson] Missionary
Jayde - Loves Sirius
so_jayded
Title: Missionary
Authors: so_jayded & heart_iswild
Rating: NC-17ish
Genre: Hancest
Notes: I was going through Google Docs and I found this. Forgot all about it. :(

Zac Hanson was not gay.Collapse )

[Hanson] Wildflower
Jayde - Loves Sirius
so_jayded
Title: Wildflower
Author: so_jayded
Word Count: 2500
Summary: It was easier than he thought.

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[Hanson] Fuck-Up (2/2)
Jayde - Loves Sirius
so_jayded
Title: Fuck Up
Authors: heart_iswild & so_jayded
Rating: NC-17
Word Count: 15,000 (YES THAT'S RIGHT)
Genre: Hancest
Warnings: Self-injury, incest, blah blah blah
Notes: This is not chaptered. No, seriously, it's not. The post was just too big for LJ so we had to split it into two parts. :( That's never happened to me before.

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[Hanson] Fuck-Up (1/2)
Jayde - Loves Sirius
so_jayded
Title: Fuck Up
Authors: heart_iswild & so_jayded
Rating: NC-17
Word Count: 15,000 (YES THAT'S RIGHT)
Genre: Hancest
Warnings: Self-injury, incest, blah blah blah
Notes: This is not chaptered. No, seriously, it's not. The post was just too big for LJ so we had to split it into two parts. :( That's never happened to me before.

Taylor didn't really hear insults anymore.Collapse )

Meme~*
Jayde - Loves Sirius
so_jayded
You know how sometimes people on your friend's list post about stuff going on in their life, and all of a sudden you think "Wait a minute? Since when are they working THERE? Since when are they dating HIM/HER? since when???" And then you wonder how you could have missed all that seemingly pretty standard information, but somehow you feel too ashamed to ask for clarification because it seems like info you *should* already know? It happens to all of us sometimes.

Please copy mine below, erase my answers putting yours in their place then post it in your journal! Please elaborate on the questions that would benefit from elaboration! One-Word-Answers seldom help anyone out :)

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Fic: [Hanson] Empty Spaces (3/3)
Jayde - Loves Sirius
so_jayded
Title: Empty Spaces [3/3]
Author: so_jayded
Word Count: 2176
Rating: PG-13
Pairing: Taylor Hanson/Jeremy Wright
Notes: For tumbling_down, because I loff her.

The rest of December passed in a blur.Collapse )

Fic: [Harry Potter] London Is Burning (1/1)
Jayde - Loves Sirius
so_jayded
Title: London Is Burning
Author: so_jayded
Word Count: 2881
Rating: R
Pairing: Remus/Sirius/Ginny
Notes: For sirena_lupin.

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Fic: [Hanson] Empty Spaces (2/3)
Jayde - Loves Sirius
so_jayded
Title: Empty Spaces [2/3]
Author: so_jayded
Word Count: 2156
Rating: PG-13
Pairing: Taylor Hanson/Jeremy Wright
Notes: For tumbling_down, because I loff her.

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Fic: [Hanson] Empty Spaces (1/3)
Jayde - Loves Sirius
so_jayded
Title: Empty Spaces [1/3]
Author: so_jayded
Word Count: 2373
Rating: PG-13
Pairing: Taylor Hanson/Jeremy Wright
Notes: For tumbling_down, because I loff her.

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Jayde - Loves Sirius
so_jayded
So, life is miserable when I'm not on the road. There's a surprise, right? I'm frustrated that I'm going to have to wait until the fall (which, with these silly boys, means winter) to see them again. Although it's better for me. I'm so tightly budgeted over the summer that I won't have a spare $200 to get airfare, never mind pay for gas, tickets, and all those other fun tour expenses.

I hate living so far away from the people I tour with. Granted, I live close to some of them - Kim is just down the street - but I really like traveling with Laura and Angela. It's always well planned out and endlessly fun.

I miss tour when I'm not on it. I miss the endless miles on the road, sleeping all cramped up in the back seat, eating shitty food from truck stops in the middle of the night. I miss running back and forth from lines to the car. I feel like I'm stuck, stopped in the middle of an adventure, and every fiber in my being is telling me to keep going, to walk somewhere, to run away from all this bullshit and responsibility but I can't because I have to live real life, at least for a little while longer.

Everyone is getting on my ass to go back to school. I don't want to. I tried that road and I didn't feel like I belonged at all. I felt like all I was doing was working towards something, that all I've been doing for my whole life was working towards something else and never once taking a second to live in the moment.

I took that chance last year. It started with three shows in a row. I got bit by it then, I got pushed in a direction that I didn't even know how to handle because I just felt like I had to keep running, keep moving forward down dark highways and through a thousand airports towards something indescribable. I can't reason it out. I can't figure out what's so satisfying about it, what part of it makes me feel alive.

I traveled 34,848 miles in thirteen months searching for something. I don't know what it is. I know I crave it more than anything in the world and I know, completely, that I won't be happy if I'm living my life any other way. Maybe one day I won't be following, chasing after a bus and a dream and a band that doesn't care if I live or die, but I know that I can't live my life the way I was living it before.

I feel like I'm stuck when I'm at home. I feel like I'm pressed against a wall, pushing back and trying to knock it down but I can't. I don't know if it's that something. I don't know if I can describe it with any of the lame metaphors Hanson came up with. I just know that when I'm here, sitting at work and waiting for the clock to turn over so I can get up and spend eight hours pouring coffee, I'm dissatisfied in a way I never was before.

Part of it is because I didn't know there was another way to live life before March of 2007. I had no idea that there was this whole other subculture of people who spend their lives chasing dreams. I wonder it now, every time we're on the highway or stopped at a rest stop for a quick break, if the people around us know that we exist. If they know that out there, there's hundreds of people who pointlessly chase a dream just for the sake of living in the moment, of not wasting one precious moment because life is too short to live working for the next great thing.

That's my problem with 'real life'. All through my childhood, I was being pushed to get ready for the next big thing. When I got to high school, it was get ready for college. When I got to college, it was get ready to work. When I finally get there, to a 'real' job and everything, it's what? Get ready to retire? When am I supposed to live?

I'm sorry. I can't waste my life that way. I can't spend my entire existence working forty hours a week to just advance myself to the next level of waiting.

I want to live.

F-F-F-Friends Only
Jayde - Loves Sirius
so_jayded


When I say 'friends', I mean it. In the literal sense of I can call you up and say "oh hai!" I got tired of the long friends list of people I don't know. So I'm instating the same rules I have for my myspace:

I will friend you if:

* I know you
* You know me somehow
* You don't mind my crazy ramblings
* You are a member of Hanson, The Moffatts, or are Leonardo DiCaprio
* You are willing to give me $1 million.

I will not friend you if:

* You want to read my fanfic - ( playthingfic is the only thing I'm writing. Go friend that.)
* You want to read my fanfic that isn't Plaything (I'll make a community if I ever get around to writing on my own)
* You are a stranger that I have never met before
* You are a stranger that is unwilling to give me $1 million.
* You dislike Hanson to the point that I will have to shank you
* You are a douchebag (That includes you, Clarkey! *shakes fist*)

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Jayde - Loves Sirius
so_jayded
Let's all talk about this just for a minute.

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